March 3, 2013 · 11:46 pm

poem 39hirty-nine: the nu knows what it IS now

you knew what it was
you know what this is
you knew i was wife’d
you knew i had kids!
the truth of it is
this ain’t the truth!
yeah you’re the best
i ever did
you knew what it was!
you’re the best worst
part of me
i ain’t trying to
quit it
quit it! don’t make
it more than it was
which is just a minute
i’m just giving you
pieces to hold
not a whole to
peace with!
come on man!
you knew what this
shit was
this was some ol’
escapism
now you tryin’
to gentrify
my whole being and shit
i told you from jump
when we sat down
laid down
rolled around
how i get down
now you wanna fuck
up our high
on the low!
you knew what this was!
a regular nut
now you want a
kiss and a hug
come on cuz!!
you knew what the
fuck this was!
you making the simple
too instense
but yo shit too
good to just quit
don’t fuck up this
with some feelings
and shit
cloud it with
consciousness
that was the arrangement
no in depth engagement
but you deading it
with emotional
entanglement
come on man!
what the fuck?!
you knew just what
the fuck this was!

… that’s what he said to me

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· 10:56 am

numerology

I AM NOT THE ONE
TO BE TREATED
HAPHAZARDLY
NOT THE ONE TO BE
LOVED LACKADAISICALLY
WITHOUT FERVER
ATTENDING OF MY
HEART CASUALLY
OH NO NO NO NO NO
IT REQUIRES A SENSE
OF URGENCY
LOVING ME SHOULD
NEVER BRING ABOUT
COMPLACENCY
LOVING ME SHOULD
BE AN ACT OF
DUPLICITY, FOR
LOVING ME IS THE VERY
ACT OF SELF-LOVE
MY PRETTY BABY

I AM NOT THE ONE
YOU’RE MADE FOR

YOU AND I AREN’T
EQUALING TWO CAUSE THERE’S
A THIRD
THAT I WASN’T READY
FOR
MY SENSORS SCREAMING
FIVE ALARMS LOUD
CAUSE YOUR LOVE
SUFFERS SIX DEGREES OF
SEPARATION WHEN YOUR
FAMILY’S AROUND
BUT WHEN WE’RE ALONE

BUT WHEN WE’RE ALONE
AND NAKED AND SOCIETY-FREE
UNENCUMBERED
YOU GIVE ME ALL SEVEN
HEAVENS
I SING YOUR SONG OF
THE SWORD
I SEE THE MOON GLOW
MERCURY’S INSTABILITY
VENUS’ FEMININITY
FELT THE SUNS HEAT
SAW OUR MAR’S AT WAR
JUPITERS CLOUDS
AND RAN RINGS AROUND SATURN
YOU GAVE ME
PARADISE AND HELL
PRETTY BABY

and.
i.
ate.
it.
up.

YOU ARE NOT THE ONE
AND IT’S THE NINTH INNING

THIS IS ENDING

ONE.

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February 25, 2013 · 10:08 pm

2 lies make a truth, honestly

i’m falling, quite honestly
but i can’t land honestly
i can’t tell you the truth
’cause honestly
we ain’t ‘ppose to be doing
this
honestly
stealing hearts and glances
quite honestly
got me hard
honestly
i’m running out of lies
disguised
like light, when i’m
keeping you in the dark
quite honestly
i just want to get tangled
in your hair
honestly
how long we gon’ do this
how long i’m gon’ keep frontin’
quite honestly
i need to be ignoring this
perfection of you honestly
you tickle me
arouse me
astound me
whenever you’re around me
quite honestly
you make me better
push me further
make me harder
and softer
making me sacrifice my
heart to be loves
martyr
honestly
your stare scares
and emboldens me
quite honestly
i tried quitting you
before i fantasized on
beginning it honestly
you are my emotional
affair
boundaries outlined
neither of us
dare not go there
i know you noticed it
honestly
we so off-key
but managing to be in
perfect harmony
quite honestly
slowly hating you because
i’m filling up with love
feeling for you
the truth is
i can’t be truthful
honestly
i’m scared quite
honestly
the truth would set
you free from me
honestly
while living in the
middle of this lie binds
your attentions to me
quite honestly

we just going through the
motions of it
ignoring it honestly
we wouldn’t work past 6th
heaven
we won’t hear seraphim songs
nor see the throne
quite honestly
i’m running out of lies
quite honestly overflowing
with lies that i’m
overwhelmingly wanting you
wanting to tell you all
the truths and just get it
out of me and
on. to. you.
honestly

we both know it
just keep
ignoring it
quite honestly
i never felt like this honestly
i’m dizzy quite honestly
i’m triflin’ for not being
truthful
honestly
i know you suspect
quite honestly

we just need to keep lying
honestly
just keep it right where it is
quite honestly
act like you don’t see it growing
honestly
and i won’t acknowledge the
heartbreak in store
quite….honestly

keep the tongues tied
this lie seems more
truthful
than our honesty
could ever be

quite. honestly.
1ne

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December 29, 2012 · 4:56 pm

dancing toward the spring

letting go
what you shoulda kept
think i’d stay
’cause you wept
you wanna slow drag it
i’ma tap dancin’
grinning singing
muthafucka
you left the love
pop-lockin’
leaving my heart
breakdancin’
so you thought

i’m pirouetting
getting more
graceful
resilient
when the love is spent
thought i was bankrupt
until i acknowledged
i was priceless

you can’t impress me
with your silken golden
frocks
but its the simplest cottons
and natty locs
that capture my heart

spring is mine
spring is mine

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December 21, 2012 · 9:06 pm

poem 20wenty: the nu is in need of a new kinda still

everything’s kinda still,
you know?
still house
nerves made of steel
but my heart’s still beatin’
kinda still
this night is made for
warm hands
and the softest lips
kinda night, right?

i want a night
like tonight, but just with
another, you know?
i want someone beside
me while i read my book
kinda night
someone that’s stretched out
east to west
to my north to south
readin’ their own book
absentmindedly
rubbin’ on my
bald head
while i play with their
hair in between turning my page
you feel what i’m
tellin’ ya’ll  tonight?

everything is still
it’s peaceful
and it’s quiet ya’ll
and we’re just making
furniture of each other
and reading books

and yeah, we’re still
in love.

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November 30, 2012 · 8:16 pm
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November 30, 2012 · 8:15 pm